Saturday, December 12, 2015

Goodbye Norway

Oh gosh, how silly of me actually thinking this was going to be easy.

Life is crazy. I mean, CRAZY. You never know what the next day brings. This fact is something we all knowledge and agree on, but I've had a major reminder slap on my face these past few days. :D

After I started living here alone in September, at first, I couldn't wait for this day. I was beyond excited to leave and just go home. Leave this house, these streets, the woods I used to love running in, the buildings.. and all the memories with them, behind. Life had taken an unexpected turn, and not in the direction I wanted to.

I still felt like that some weeks ago until it really hit me. Soon all I will have from this place are those memories. Some good, some less good, still, they're ever so real and precious to me.

My perception changed, and I began feeling moved and appreciative about everything. Yes, even the ice-cold rainstorms that splash straight into your face as soon as you leave the house. :D !!

And some recent events have left me feeling even less eager to move.

Why? I know there are some obvious reasons, but one is simply that we don't like change. We fear it, even. I'm about to step into the unknown, move away from familiar faces, places etc. This is never easy nor should it be.

I still remember as if it was yesterday, when I first moved here. It was in August 2012. I was filled with excitement - finally moving away from home, and to a whole new country! At that point of my life, I desperately craved a change and a fresh start.

These three years have been incredible. Not always good, there's been a lot of tough and sad moments, I'm not going to lie. But they've also been the best years of my life.

Now I have a Bachelor's Degree, but also a set of important life lessons and experiences, just as valuable and enriching.

So much has happened, and I'm definitely not the same person I was in 2012, nor do I want to be. I'm a lot closer to "finding myself", I know myself and what I want of life a lot better now. I am forever grateful for these years and will never forget them.

I guess what I want to say is, that if you ever find yourself in a situation where you have to take a chance, make a big change, take a risky step - DO IT. You will learn and grow in ways beyond imagination. I know I have.

I can't help but feeling sad. I'm not only leaving behind a country with the most amazing nature, but also amazing and dear people to me (you know who you are).
All I can say now is, Thank you, and I will be back. Maybe sooner than first expected.

x Mira

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